Flash Fiction – For Todd

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They say revenge is a dish best served cold. I waited until I was as cold as the stone over Todd’s grave. As cold as the January night air that stung my skin and stole my breath while I waited by the train tracks.

If I’d acted sooner—if I’d let grief and rage take over in those first days, first weeks after Todd’s death—I might have been careless, might not have even gone through with it.

Instead I smothered the fury. Stifled it. Compressed it into a diamond-hard knot in the pit of my stomach, a simmering storm in the back of my mind.

It waited.

I waited. For months.

***

Todd died in early summer. We got the news on the Fourth of July. Fireworks tore up the night like bombs destroying our world. Deb was inconsolable—she’d always held out hope that he’d clean himself up and come home, make something of himself.

I guess I knew better—that we’d lost him long before his overdose.

His landlord found him after getting an anonymous phone tip. There was a police investigation, we were questioned, but in the end, to them he was just another junkie who lived too fast. No foul play—at least not beyond a stupid kid shooting black tar between his toes.

I kept my suspicions to myself. If Deb shared them, she never told me. But they were confirmed when Chet showed up at the funeral. Bastard came with liquor on his breath, teetered alone in the back of the viewing, and had the gall to tell me, right then, that he’d been with Todd on the night of his OD. That he had some of Todd’s things to give to me. That’s all I needed to hear to know Chet had been responsible.

The wound was too fresh, too raw, not yet buried under a mound of scar tissue. I lost it, screamed at him to get out. I got some looks, but who could fault a grieving father for his emotions boiling over on the day his son went into the ground?

Deb and I kept living, going through the motions the best we knew how. By the time Chet worked up the courage to contact me again, I’d distilled my anguish into a single, focused task. And nothing was going to stop me.

***

I was watching my breath stream into the night when a car turned a corner and approached. Gravel crunched under bald tires as Chet’s rust bucket crept to a stop a safe distance from the nearby train tracks. Decades-old engine cut out, door squealed open, shocks groaned in relief. Chet stepped out of the car, opened the rear door, and lifted a box from the back seat. He walked up to me with a smile that faltered as soon as our eyes met. I kept my hands jammed in my coat pockets, so he set the box down on the gravel next to him.

“Thanks for meetin’ me,” he said. He reeked of cheap cigarettes, but for once there was no booze on his breath. “You and Deb, you guys doin’ okay?”

What do you care?

I nodded at the box. “That Todd’s things?”

“Yeah, yeah,” he sighed. “That’s everything.”

I bored into his eyes with my own. “Why did you take it?”

“I, uh… well, the cops, you know? Just wanted to make sure the important stuff made it to you.”

I said nothing in return, just stared at him in the scant light until he squirmed from the pressure. “All right, look, I wasn’t exactly in my right mind myself, you know? Just figured he weren’t gonna need the stuff anymore, and rather’n let it go to waste as ‘evidence’ and get scrapped…”

“You’d pawn it and make some money.”

“Christ, cut me some slack, okay? Business ain’t what it used to be, and Todd couldn’t pay me—”

“You gave him the junk that killed him!”

“He weren’t gonna survive another night! He was hurtin’! I just… I just wanted to make him comfortable. I stayed with him until—”

The wail of a train horn cut him off. He turned to look down the tracks just as an engine rounded a distant bend, its headlight forcing me to see my brother’s face clearly for the first time in months.

For the last time.

I drove my gloved knuckles into his cheek, sent him reeling backward, stumbling over the tracks. He lost his footing, went down, might have cracked his head on the far rail, I wasn’t sure. Another blare from the approaching train spurred me forward. I crouched over him, yanked his cursing, sputtering head off the ground by his open jacket collar and punched him again. The first strike had stunned him; the second pissed him off. His hands shot up, trying to push me off of him. He kneed my backside repeatedly but he had no leverage to cause any real pain. His flailing only annoyed me—until I spotted a glint of metal under his flapping jacket, at the waistband of his jeans.

I pinned him to the tracks with one hand and grabbed the gun, then sprang to my feet and backed away from him, barrel aimed at his chest. His wide eyes shone like jittery saucers in the uneven light from the train. He struggled to his feet, scrambled forward—

The train horn’s blast nearly deafened me.

I pulled the trigger. Chet jerked and fell to the tracks, writhing in pain. I threw the gun toward him, just out of his reach.

Then I turned around.

The screech of the train wheels nearly drowned out his frantic screams. I’ll never know if his last howls were born of pain, wrath, or dread—only that, as I stooped to pick up the box he’d brought, the train brought an abrupt end to his cries.

***

I don’t know if the freight train came to a stop. Don’t much remember the walk home. The first clear memory I have after turning my back on the rails was sitting with Deb in our living room, my face on fire, my hands frozen. Todd’s belongings were spread out on the floor and coffee table. Deb’s sobs racked my body as badly as the night we got the call.

But me? I was finally calm. At peace. Some say revenge is a hollow pursuit, will leave you empty and hurting even worse than the original pain. Not for me. Will I get caught someday? Did my best to make it look like a messy suicide, but I’m no forensics expert. So, maybe. But it doesn’t bother me.

Because every day I wake up knowing I did right by my son.

***

This story was written for a flash fiction prompt at Chuck Wendig’s blog, terribleminds.com and inspired by lyrics from the Fun Lovin’ Criminals song “Southside.” A lyric from Metallica’s “Fuel” also snuck its way in.

Train photo by Andrew Gray.

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Trail’s End (Part 1)

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A peculiar but familiar noise pricked Stanley’s ears, even over the jangling piano across the room. A sound that came less and less frequently to this town with each passing year.

Spurs.

He twisted around in his chair, preparing himself for the typical loud-mouthed bluster of a washed-up cowboy looking to stir up trouble. He found something else entirely. A smallish figure trudged straight from the saloon’s door to the bar, a dust-caked relic of another era capped with a stained and dented Stetson left out too long in the sun. Though the saloon was far from crowded, a noticeable path parted as the figure moved, the other customers keeping as much distance from it as possible. The sounds of conversation dwindled to murmurs as two dozen pairs of eyes watched the diminutive rancher settle heavily onto a stool at the bar.

Stanley turned to his friend Jeremiah across the table they sat at. Jeremiah looked just as grim as the rest of the clientele, his stare fixed on the hunched cowboy. “What’s all this about?” Stanley asked him with a curious grin.

Jeremiah said nothing, simply nodded toward the bar. Stanley returned his attention there to find the bartender scowling at a pair of coins offered to him between thin fingers. The drooping brim of the stranger’s hat hid most of his face, but Stanley saw a hairless chin working in unheard speech.

“Y’ain’t wanted ‘round here,” the bartender declared, arms folded in refusal. “Ya’d do well ta turn tail and go back where ya came from.”

The reply shushed the remaining conversation in the saloon, allowing Stanley to hear the stranger’s next words. “Ain’t lookin’ to make no trouble. Just want a beer and a bed for the night.”

Stanley’s brow furrowed. The voice was all wrong. Gravelly and cracked from age, but too high, no bass notes in the tinny tone.

“Ya been told before not to enter this town’s jurisdiction,” the bartender said. “Now don’t make me get the police to drag ya out.”

The stranger’s head tilted up, small hard eyes finally fixing on the bartender. “If the sheriff wants me outta his town, he damn well better come here and tell me to my face. Otherwise, I ain’t movin’ ‘til I got a pint in front o’ me.”

Huffing out a breath, the bartender glanced at a couple of men standing by the door. They nodded and ducked out of the saloon without a word. No one else moved. The stranger’s eyes bored into the bartender’s, everyone else’s glued to the stranger’s back. Stanley tried to surmise what was going on. An old cowboy was being refused service and hospitality in a town that had only recently shed its raucous ranching history. Was it as simple as the citizens preventing the possibility of a return to near lawlessness? Unlikely, Stanley thought, as no other cowboys were treated so harshly as long as they behaved. This stranger was one of the least troublesome of the lot, yet Stanley’s fellow residents were ready to run him out without so much as a gun drawn or a punch thrown. Something else was going on here.

With no further action, the other patrons began to lose interest in the staring match across the bar. Conversations trickled back into Stanley’s ears—until the saloon’s door was thrown wide and the collective tension ratcheted back up. A tall, beefy man with wind-burned cheeks framing a thick moustache ambled into the saloon, a star on his vest and cold steel in his eyes. Sheriff Clemens had arrived.

The lawman stopped directly behind the stranger. “Evenin’, friend,” he rumbled.

The stranger didn’t flinch, or turn, or lift his head. “Friend? That train left the station a long time ago, dinnit?”

“Sure did,” Sheriff Clemens replied. “With your hand on the throttle.”

Shoulders slumping further, the stranger sighed. “Like I told the fine gentleman behind the bar, I ain’t here ta make trouble fer yer pretty lil’ town. Just want a bite t’eat, a place ta rest my head, and maybe a few minutes o’ yer time tomorrow.”

Sheriff Clemens paused, then moved to the stranger’s side and leaned on the bar. “The problem with that plan is: trouble follows you, no matter your intentions. And I got a great many more people to think about now than I did in my youth. So here’s what we’re gonna do. We’re gonna go back outside, you’re gonna get on yer horse, and I’m gonna watch you ride out past the town’s edge ‘til I can’t see ya no more.”

The stranger finally turned to look at the sheriff. “And if I refuse?”

“Cuffs ‘n’ bars.”

The room tensed, waiting for a flurry of motion, the drawing of weapons, the bloody business of meted justice. They received a small, tired cowboy dropping from his barstool to stand toe-to-toe with a sad but resolute sheriff. Their standoff afforded Stanley the clearest view yet of the stranger’s face—and like his voice, it was all wrong. Skin ploughed by years but never touched by a razor, chin narrow, cheekbones high and proud. Could this ranching remnant be—

“I need help,” the stranger whispered up at the sheriff. “Please.”

But the plea was as tired and stale as the dusty blanket wrapped around the stranger’s shoulders. The old cowboy knew what the answer would be.

“The cost is too high,” Sheriff Clemens replied. “This town’s already paid a lifetime’s worth for helpin’ you. I’ve paid. Dearly.”

The stranger stared stone-faced at the lawman, then glanced down at the coins in his hand. “Fer yer trouble,” he said, and flicked them onto the bar. They clattered off the far edge and disappeared. The bartender’s glare never left the stranger’s face. Without another word, the old cowboy turned and trudged back to the door, disappearing into the dusk.

Sheriff Clemens watched the door for a long while but didn’t follow the stranger outside. Then, with a sniff and a twitch of his moustache, he turned to the saloon’s patrons. “Thank y’all fer yer patience and restraint,” he said, voice tired and hoarse. “Have a pleasant evenin’.”

The piano tinkled out a hesitant invitation to resume the evening’s activities, but Stanley had lost interest in his whiskey. He sprang from his chair and crossed the saloon. “Sheriff Clemens!” he called over the returning din.

The taller man turned. “Evenin’, Stan,” he said with a curt nod.

“What was all that about, sheriff?” Stanley asked. “You seemed ta know that rancher.”

Sheriff Clemens closed his eyes and sighed. “An old friend in another life. Nothin’ you need worry yourself with.”

Despite his promise to watch the stranger ride off into the descending night, the sheriff heaved himself onto a stool and accepted a glass of liquor from the bartender. Confused, Stanley made his way to the door and out into the gloom of dusk. The stranger was checking over the equipment bags buckled to his horse’s saddle. Stanley approached from behind, hesitating as he tried to think of a way to ask the question on his mind.

“Clemens send ya out here to make sure I tuck tail and run off?” the stranger drawled, not turning to look at Stanley.

“No, no,” he stammered. “I, um… I couldn’t help but overhear you ask the sheriff for assistance.”

A dry chuckle jostled the old cowboy’s shoulders. “I shoulda known better. What’s it to ya?”

Stanley ventured a step closer, still several feet from the stranger. “I’d like to offer you a place to stay… for the night.”

Now the cowboy turned around, peering at Stanley with eyes of cold, hard jade. “Why in hell you wanna do a thing like that?”

“You walked in there quieter than most o’ the people who live in this town, made no fuss over nothin’, asked the sheriff fer help, and got turned down flat for no good reason I can see. Ain’t right.”

The stranger removed his hat and swiped a shirtsleeve across his forehead—and in the dim light from the saloon windows, Stanley’s suspicion was confirmed. Under the thick, grungy coat and bandoliers, beneath the sweat and grime staining the creased face, was a woman. She pulled the bandana from around her neck and swiped at the inside of her hat, then dabbed at her forehead where beads of sweat had escaped her roughly cropped gray hair. A thin silver braid hung from her hairline above one eye, dangling past her chin, and she swept it atop her head before replacing her hat. “You heard what the sheriff said. I ain’t nothin’ but trouble to be around. Why don’t you turn yourself around and go back to your safe little bar in your safe little town?”

“Are you actually refusin’ someone who’s offerin’ ta help ya? What’re you runnin’ from, anyway?”

She resumed fidgeting with her saddle for a long moment. “My life,” she muttered, then turned back to him. “What makes you qualified ta help someone like me? You a lawman? A vigilante?”

Stanley tried to stand a little straighter. “A barber.”

The stranger actually chuckled. “Well, barber, as you mighta noticed, I got precious few hairs that need trimmin’, and the longest ones I got are stayin’ that way. So thank ya for yer concern, but I believe I’ll be movin’ along now.”

“I have a place for you to sleep tonight,” he blurted, surprised at his own persistence. “An extra bed, yer own room. The sheriff’s a friend o’ mine. In the mornin’ I’ll talk to him, see if I can’t change his mind about helpin’ you.”

She squinted at him. “Ain’t no chance o’ that happenin’,” she said, pausing to consider Stanley with a critical eye. “But perhaps I’ll take ya up on that offer of a bed, since ya seem so keen ta ignore every warning that comes yer way.”

“In that case, we should get goin’ quickly, before the good sheriff finishes his drink.”

“You do realize, Mister Barber, yer askin’ me ta come home with ya, and ya ain’t even tol’ me yer name.”

Warmth flushed his cheeks; hopefully it was too dark for her to see his embarrassment. “Apologies, ma’am,” he said, holding out a hand. “Stanley Gibbs.”

She shook his hand with her gloved one, her grip firm and deliberate. “This is yer only warning,” she said. “Never call me ‘ma’m’ again. Name’s Marge.”

***

This story will explore the later years of Marge, a character who appeared in book 2 of my time-travel trilogy Borrowed Time, which I’m querying to agents as of this post.

Artwork by Tim Wetzel, Art Institute of Philadelphia.

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’90s Rock, Writing, and Diversifying Your Skill Set

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While on the road this past weekend, I was listening to one of my favorite bands from the 1990s, the Red Hot Chili Peppers, and their music got me thinking about an artist building an artistic arsenal. Most of us have heard the phrase “one-trick pony,” someone who has one skill they excel at but not much of anything else to their credit. They might be able to make a spark, a flash in their field, but can’t sustain the fire of audience interest because they grow boring very quickly. Three-chord pop punk bands and dark, grinding nu-metal come to mind when talking about music. (Don’t get me wrong – I love me some three-chord pop punk and angsty, brooding nu-metal, but one has to admit it gets stale after a while.) It’s therefore important to diversify one’s skill set as a creative. Doing so makes for a well-rounded, versatile, and flexible artist who can keep their audience coming back for more.

I think the Chili Peppers are an excellent example of this diversification of skills, especially since they’ve been a mainstay of the pop music scene for most of their thirty-plus year career. Across that time, they’ve drawn from numerous genres of music and myriad songwriting, instrumental, lyrical, and vocal techniques to stay fresh and interesting. From their self-titled first album, way back in 1984, their unique blend of funk, punk, and rap was already evident. The funk grew even stronger on their sophomore effort, Freaky Styley, produced by the 1970s funk-master himself, George Clinton. The late 1980s mixed in hard rock/heavy metal elements, and by the time their big mainstream breakthrough came in 1991’s Blood Sugar Sex Magik, they’d honed their musical mélange into a well-oiled machine. The heavy radio play of BSSM‘s four singles firmly entrenched the Chili Peppers in the public consciousness, and their musical versatility kept them there for at least another two decades.

The same sort of diversification is also essential for writers. I don’t mean to say that to be successful, you should aim to publish in several different genres across your career. From what I’ve read and learned about writing professionally, jumping genres even once can be difficult and risky. What I mean is: learn to incorporate elements of different genres and writing styles into the niche you want to carve for yourself in the literary world. My own large projects, the ones I want to query to literary agents for publication, are firmly science fiction. Yet because they’re time-travel-based, they’re also heavily historical. And because all good stories should deal with interpersonal relationships and interactions, there are elements of dramatic tension as well as romance. Finally, the main plot arcs are driven by a couple of related mysteries that unfold over the course of the story.

Of course, this begs the question of what genre I pitch my story as. Do I call it a romantic historical science-fiction mystery? Of course not! You need to pick a genre classification, or at most two, that fit the heart of your story. The same goes for musicians. Despite the Chili Peppers’ eclectic mix of styles, eventually you have to distill them to a digestible description. No one wants to have to hear or say “punk/funk/jazz-influenced rap rock” or some such. So they get boiled down to rock, or alternative rock, or maybe funk rock. So ask yourself: is your main plot/point the rekindling of love between estranged lovers? Then you’re probably looking at a romance, or maybe a science-fiction romance if it’s set on a space station in another galaxy. I know that my plot is mainly about the ramifications of time-travel abuse, so I label it science fiction, or occasionally historical science fiction. But those other genre elements are still there, enriching the story beyond past/future technobabble and historical events.

So how do you do it? How do you acquire the skills to incorporate elements outside your story’s main genre? Well, I could mention things like workshops, seminars, and articles on the topics, but I think the two most important strategies are 1) read, and 2) write. Find the “masters” of the genres you’re looking to add to your creative toolbox, and read their books. Dissect their stories, learn their strategies. Then, try it for yourself. Practice those new methods of storytelling and genre elements, play with voice, point-of-view, find what works and what doesn’t, what you like and what you don’t. I personally find short-form writing prompts to be excellent opportunities to dip my pen in different colors of ink, so to speak. And be sure to get feedback from people whose opinions you trust and value, to find what works from the reader’s standpoint.

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To NaNo or Not to NaNo?

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Are you participating in National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo) in November? Yes? That’s awesome! Good luck, may the words flow freely! No? Neither am I! A 50,000-word novel first draft is a herculean task and does not fit easily into everyone’s varied and unique life responsibilities and desires. Frankly, this year I don’t expect it will fit into mine. Yes, there is the “make time for it” camp, but that can take some serious sacrifice from other parts of one’s life, and for many people it’s just not feasible.

I’ve tried NaNoWriMo a couple of times, in an “unofficial capacity,” and with mixed results and mixed feelings about it. I was first made aware of it by my brother, also a writer, at a relative lull in my job, so I thought, let’s see what happens! At the time I didn’t realize the depth of community interaction, and wasn’t really interested in registering on the website. I just developed a concept I wanted to write about, and started tracking my daily productivity in a spreadsheet. And I won! I broke 50,000 words on November 30th… and was only halfway done. A few months later I finished the draft and began revisions. A few months after that, I started the sequel – my first NaNoWriMo project spawned a trilogy whose books are now in various stages of completion (I’m querying book 1 to literary agents).

I tried NaNo again, unofficially, the next time it rolled around, and while it did boost my output temporarily, I wasn’t in the same place in work or life that I was the year prior. My daily word count was erratic. By the third week I knew it wasn’t going to turn out the same as my first attempt. By week four I had too many non-writing things going on, and I topped out at about 25,000 for the month. I haven’t tried again since, despite joining social media and discovering there’s an enormous community of writers that participate and even spend October planning and preparing for November. It’s great that so many writers can use NaNoWriMo to their advantage, give themselves the kick in the pants they might need to finally start putting ideas down on paper. But for many others it can be a major source of stress, perhaps even disappointment if they don’t meet the goals of the event or those they set for themselves.

Let’s face it: November really isn’t even a great month for this event. Many people have significant holiday desires, expectations, or obligations at the end of the month or looming in December, which can definitely take their toll on writing productivity. Just the mere fact that, for many, the year will end a month after NaNo ends can be subliminally or overtly stressful. “December’s pretty much a loss, so this is the last chance I have this year to get a draft started!” And even if we “win,” there’s the expectation, or desire, or attempt to maintain November’s level of productivity in January, kind of like a head start on a New Year’s resolution with December intervening. And we all know how well most resolutions turn out, right? Feels like it would be better to hold NaNo during… I don’t know, March? April? Oh well.

My point is that it’s not for everyone. If you want to try it, and you have the means (e.g. supportive partner/family, flexible work responsibilities/schedule), I say give it a shot! But if you don’t hit that 50k mark by November 30, or you choose not to start, don’t be too hard on yourself. Everyone’s life is unique, everyone’s process is unique, and this month shouldn’t be a source of undue stress. Am I participating? Well, I mentioned earlier that I didn’t expect it to fit into my own life. The longer answer is that, due to some recent major non-writing-related changes, November is looking more open for me than it did a month ago. Those changes came with their own new responsibilities though, and honestly, those need to take precedence right now. So no, I am not planning on 1,700 words per day for 30 days. What I do want to do is use November to be more regularly productive in balance with my other responsibilities. I’ve been in a bit of a writing slump recently, so even a few hundred words every day would be an improvement.

So if you’re doing NaNoWriMo this year, I’ll be cheering you on in spirit as you marathon toward a first draft of your new novel! And if not, I’ll be cheering you on in whatever goals you do have for the month, be they regular daily writing, a particular word count, a finished piece, or the various non-writing responsibilities we all have.

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Flash Fiction – Autumn’s Embrace

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I lean against the old elm and pull my jacket tighter around me. Autumn came too fast this year, and I wasn’t ready. Just like I wasn’t ready for the email from Danni. The sight of her message blew a cold wind through my mind, like the stiff breeze disturbing the leaves all around. After so many months I thought we’d put things to rest. At least, I’d tried, and assumed she’d forgotten about everything. Now I’m standing here in the woods behind my childhood home, waiting for something I’m not sure I want to happen, trying to look nonchalant with a shovel in my hand.

She’s late. She said five o’clock. It’s already five fifteen, getting colder and darker thanks to the clouds bruising the sky. I check my phone, but no new messages. Was this just a prank? Was she sitting in a bar somewhere with her friends, having a good laugh at my expense? The Danni from our childhood, our adolescence, our college years wouldn’t have done that, but the one from months ago? The old me wouldn’t consider the possibility. The man I am now hefts the shovel and pushes away from the tree… no. Five minutes. Give her five more minutes.

A car engine approaches, then cuts out. A door shuts. Silence for several seconds, then I hear leaves and twigs crunching underfoot. My heart races—that traitor—and I run a cold hand through my hair as I peer through the trees to see who’s coming. It’s Danni, of course. She picks her way toward me and I see her face in person for the first time since last winter. Her cheeks and nose are red from the cold, and she’s let her hair grow back out. It’s the same Danni I fell in love with years ago. I flush with a wave of warmth from the sight of her, though it’s tainted with regret from the way we left things.

When our eyes meet, one corner of her mouth twitches in a familiar smirk, but there’s more than a hint of hesitation in her body language. She stops several feet from where I’m standing, then tucks a strand of hair behind her ear and looks away. It’s a gesture I know too well, born from not wanting to discuss something, or not finding the words for what’s on her mind. “Hey,” she says.

She sounds out of breath. Could be the chill in the air. Could be nerves. Is she as anxious as I feel? I decide not to push. “Hey.”

“I, um… I saw your car back at the road. Still have that old thing, huh?”

“Hasn’t quit on me yet,” I reply, then feel an overwhelming urge to smack myself in the head with the shovel.

She doesn’t seem to notice my poor choice of words. “I was happy to see it,” she continues. “I thought you might not come.”

“I said I would.”

Any trace of happiness fades from her face. “I know.”

She falls quiet and looks away. I hate awkward silences. “I was thinking of leaving when I heard you pull up,” I say to fill the emptiness, cut the tension between us. “I thought maybe you weren’t gonna come either.”

“Yeah, sorry I was late,” she says. “I, um, had to stop for gas on the way over.”

“No worries. It’s… it’s good to see you.”

Her eyes flash at me, and I give her a genuine smile. A small chuckle escapes her lips. I think her cheeks redden a little more. This already isn’t going anywhere close to how I thought it would. My shoulders relax, but this meeting is both easier and harder than I’d expected. “Well,” I say, gesturing with the shovel. “Should we get to work?”

She inhales sharply, and says, “Yeah,” so I drive the shovel’s blade into the dirt beneath the elm. “I think it was on the other side,” she says before I’ve even lifted any earth.

I frown, look around at the arrangement of trees, double-check my memory. I’m positive I’ve got the right spot, open my mouth to say so, then just nod and circle the tree. I don’t want to argue. So I start digging. I’ve not hefted five mounds when she’s at my side with a hand on the shovel. “I’ll help,” she says.

I let her take over, and we take turns digging in the cold autumn gloom. She was right, of course; the shovel hits something hard on this side of the elm, not where I’d wanted to start. I set the tool down and we work together to clear away more dirt with our hands. Then we kneel in silence and stare at the small metal box in the earth.

My mouth runs dry. I feel sick. I don’t want to do this anymore. I’m angry—angry at Danni for asking me to come back here, at the two stupid kids we used to be, at the childhood pact we made to bury our most cherished possessions together, to show our friendship was more important than anything else. I’d hoped she’d forgotten about it, or thought it too immature to honor after all these years. Because if the box stayed buried, I could keep clinging to the delusion we might be friends again someday. Because digging it up, taking back our prizes, meant things were truly over. It meant I’d lost my best friend for good.

She reaches into the ground and carefully lifts the box out, then sets it before us. I can’t look at her, so I just stare hard at the latch protecting our treasure. Seconds tick by as I muster the courage to open the damned thing, but when I finally do reach out and touch the cold metal, Danni’s hand darts to cover mine. “I lied,” she says.

I don’t know how to respond. But I don’t pull away. Instead, I force myself to look at her. She’s staring at the box with wide eyes, her jaw working like she’s mouthing words until she finds the right ones. “I didn’t stop to get gas. I was late because Janice had to talk me into actually coming.”

Her sister had to…? Danni’s the one who emailed me. What is she talking about? But a part of me knows what she’ll say next. Or at least hopes it knows.

“I didn’t ask you back to do… this,” she says. “I miss you, so much, and I just… I needed to know if there’s even the slightest chance that you—that we—”

She doesn’t finish. Can’t get the words out. I watch her eyes fill with tears. Mine are already there. I turn my hand over and squeeze hers, and our fingers lace together. Her hand in mine warms me more than any meager bit of body heat from the contact. My anger, my fear, dissolve into the cold breeze. Her words help me find the courage to say what I thought I’d never get to, what I nearly let stay buried today. “I’ve missed you too. When I saw your message, I thought maybe—”

Before I know it, she takes my face in her hands and draws me to her, presses her lips to mine. Her kiss is full of urgency, but also doubt and regret. I lean into it, return it uncertainty and all, and squeeze her shoulders, terrified of ever letting go again. Her fingers dig into my hair, and my face is wet but I can’t tell whose tears they are. It doesn’t matter. Nothing matters, except that we’re here, together again.

When our lips finally part, I touch my forehead to hers and curl my fingers around her hands. We kneel there for a long time, listening to each other’s sniffles and feeling our mutual shudders of relief. Words are unnecessary now. I lean back to look at her, her puffy eyes, her damp cheeks, her quivering lips – my beautiful Danni. Over her shoulder, the sun’s slipped into a gap beneath the clouds on the horizon. Shafts of golden warmth cut through the trees and breathe life into the coming evening, flooding the woods with brilliant reds and oranges. A cliché coincidence, I know, but the vibrant autumn hues are a welcome reprieve from the afternoon’s drab dread. Danni and I share smiles, and we lower the latched box into the earth and cover it again. Then we help each other to our feet and leave the woods hand in hand, comforted by the knowledge that we’ve weathered this storm together.

***

This story was inspired by two flash-fiction prompts at Chuck Wendig’s blog at terribleminds.com: write a story about a tree, and write a story involving the theme “To fix something, you must first break it.”

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Splice, Part 2: Old Habits, New Friends

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That didn’t go well.

Sewage sprayed everywhere as Splice trudged through the subterranean tunnels, wending his way back to the junction he’d begun to call “home.” He should have known better than to assume the police would welcome him with open arms. This wasn’t the comic books. This was real life. Besides, when had his encounters with cops ever gone well? At least this time he was reasonably sure their guns couldn’t hurt him. But he had to assume he still had nerves, and their stun guns would hurt him. And he sure as hell didn’t want to risk them finding out who he’d been before. At best, they’d lock him back up, likely in a cell he couldn’t escape from. So, for once, he played it smart. He fled.

At least the captives were safe now. That’s what it had all been about, ultimately, right? What started as a lust for vengeance became a rescue mission. And even as he melted through a sewer grate into the conduits below the police station, he realized he was happy with the outcome. A dozen people spared the fate he’d suffered, able to give first-hand testimony against the mastermind of those biological horrors. Yes, the mastermind was still alive, contrary to his original plan… but that man was now in police custody. It was quite possibly the best conclusion he could have hoped for, without adding homicide to his criminal record.

The question now was—what next? Taking stock of his situation did little to answer that question. He was an ex-con who barely resembled a human being now, with no home, no income, no ties to anything anymore. But did he even need these things? No one would charge him rent in the sewers. He hadn’t felt hunger since his transformation. And who would want to associate with the monstrosity that stared back at him from every reflective surface he happened upon?

Maybe that was what he needed: a way to truly blend in aboveground, something more convincing than sunglasses and a medical mask. An idea that had tickled the back of his mind for the last day or so bubbled to the surface now. As hideous as he was, he recalled looking even worse when he’d first escaped captivity and fled underground. His eyespots were a little more defined now, his mouth less of a ragged hole and more of a… well, a mouth? He wondered whether, with hard work and patience, he could learn to mold himself into the image of a man again, though perhaps not the one he used to be. Wouldn’t want to end up back in jail. And he wondered whether learning more about what had been done to him would help speed up the process. Arriving at his sewer junction abode, he snatched up his hat, coat, mask, and sunglasses, and headed back to the surface for more research.

***

This isn’t going well either.

Splice sat back on his stool, distancing himself from the phrases the library computer monitor barraged him with: “homologous recombination” and “silent chromatin” and “epigenetic regulation.” Who talked like this? If he had his original eyes, he was certain they’d burn from strain and dryness by now. What little he gleaned from the technical jargon told him he no longer had dedicated “eye cells,” or permanent cells for any biological function, for that matter. He’d been “de-differentiated,” his cells in a constant state of physiological flux in order to perform a multitude of roles, depending on what his body needed at a given moment. His DNA had been rendered hyper-adaptive, no gene permanently deactivated anymore. So, he assumed, as his eyespots tired, new cells “became” eye cells and moved in to replace the exhausted ones.

If he was right, it might explain why he hadn’t felt fatigued, hadn’t wanted to sleep or eat, since recovering control of himself after the transformation. His body was constantly swapping out its worn parts, without any thought or effort from him. Interesting, and useful, but not helpful for learning to manipulate his appearance. After hours of research, he had no more notion of how to mimic a human face than when he’d entered the library. Maybe he was reading the wrong sources. Or maybe there was no shortcut for practice, for hard work. He was no scholar, neither now nor before his rebirth, but he chose to accept the latter anyway. No amount of book-learning could replace patience in his quest to refamiliarize himself with his own body. Besides, the library was closing.

The last staff member shut half the lights off before Splice had even crossed the threshold. Stepping into a bone-chilling night, he felt a momentary sluggishness in his movements before his flesh relaxed. An adjustment to the lower temperature? he wondered. Maybe he could learn to control that too, in time, or his perception of heat and cold… or pain. All curious prospects that he could entertain after he’d reached his subterranean dwelling.

One silver lining of the arctic weather: the streets were just about deserted. It was nice to move about without feeling eyes on him all of the time. A siren wailed somewhere in the distance; car horns exchanged blares; a dog barked from inside an apartment somewhere nearby. But no one watching him, trying to peer past his shoddy disguise and figure out what was up that weird guy. The sewers afforded that sort of privacy too, but had their own drawbacks. Cramped, smelled awful, and of course the vermin. Couldn’t beat the never-ending space and fresh air of being aboveground… even if he didn’t need to breathe that air anymore.

He’d just about decided to find a manhole to drop into when shouting disturbed the frigid night. “Help! Somebody, help me!”

A man. Weak voice. Sounded old. Nearby. Scuffles and grunts of struggle accompanied the plea. Splice broke into a run, following the noises to a dark alley. His eyespots widened instantly, collecting enough light to let him discern two men in the corridor, one young and one old. The younger shoved the elder to the ground, prompting Splice to stalk forward. “Hey! Back off!”

The younger man—thug, Splice decided—spun around. A metal blade glinted in his hand. “None o’ your business, weirdo. Keep walkin’.”

“I’m making it my business,” Splice said, not breaking stride. “Leave him alone.”

The thug sneered at him, then snapped the knife in his direction. The blade struck true, piercing the waist of Splice’s trench coat.

Now Splice halted his approach. He glanced down at the knife hilt protruding from him, then looked back up at the thug, wrenched the weapon out of himself, and tossed it into the shadows. It clattered off brick and asphalt.

A moment of angry confusion flickered across the thug’s face, but he shook it off, sneered at Splice, and cracked his knuckles. “You picked the wrong night to play hero, pal.”

He started forward himself, clearly of the mind that he’d make short work of the interloper and get back to the night’s mugging. Splice let him hold onto that delusion—for a few seconds. He stood still as the thug brought himself to within arm’s reach, then let reflex take over as the man jabbed a fist into his midsection. His fluid flesh yielded immediately, as it had for the knife. The thug’s arm sank to the wrist into Splice’s abdomen, the trench coat a barrier between. Splice watched a victorious grin dissolve into a confused grimace as the thug stared at his submerged fist. Eyes met sunglass lenses, and Splice tilted his head to one side, as if reflecting his would-be attacker’s disbelief. Too bad the medical mask hid his mocking grin; he hoped his lack of visible emotion was sufficient to unnerve the man. After a few-second staring match, his body extruded the thug’s hand inch by inch. Then, before he could react with more than indignant disgust, Splice reciprocated the punch. A jet of organic material shot from his chest, hardening to concrete before connecting with the man’s face. Orbital bone shattered, and the thug spun backwards in a cyclone of limp limbs, collapsing in a pile of trash bags.

Silence fell on the scene, disturbed only by soft whimpering from the thug’s victim. Splice resorbed his organic piston and took a moment to bask in the satisfaction of having halted the mugging. It felt good to help someone overpowered by injustice, but it was more than that, deeper and baser. He relished the ability to give that low-life what was coming to him, to mete out eye-for-an-eye vengeance. The rush was familiar, a long-lost old friend from before his stint in prison.

The reason for his landing in prison.

He took a few cautious steps toward the old man trembling on the ground. “Are you okay? Can you stand?”

Even in the dim light, fear shone in the man’s eyes. “Stay back! Don’t… don’t hurt me!”

“I’m here to help, I promise—“

A siren’s wail cut him off, piercing the lull in the alley and followed a few seconds later by the red and blue strobing of a police car. He slunk back into the nearest shadows, hoping stillness would attract less attention than attempting an escape. Two cops emerged from the idling cruiser and walked with calm purpose toward the old man. One of them spoke into the radio on his uniform as the other knelt before the mugging victim. Splice didn’t even pay attention to what was being said; he only wanted to find an opportune moment to slip away—

The old man raised a shaking arm and pointed, not at his unconscious attacker lying in a garbage heap, but at Splice.

So much for going unnoticed.

The kneeling cop sprang up and they both spun around, hands dropping to their holstered firearms. “Step into the light where we can see you,” one of them barked. “Slowly.”

He didn’t see any other options, aside from neutralizing them and fleeing the scene. As he moved into a brighter patch of asphalt, he watched a flash of recognition narrow one officer’s eyes despite the sunglasses and medical mask. The other tightened his grip on his gun. “Identify yourself.”

“I’m the one who took out the trash,” Splice said. “You might want to concern yourselves with the actual criminal.”

He raised a gloved hand to point at the mugger he’d incapacitated, prompting one officer to draw his gun. The other, the one who’d recognized Splice, immediately called him off. “Go check on the other one,” he said, then approached Splice as his partner grumbled over to the unconscious thug. “Officer Greely,” he introduced himself. “You’re the… guy who brought those people back from the lab.”

Shit, here it was. The persuasion to come to the precinct to discuss “working” with the police, then be IDed as a felon and arrested again. He’d refuse the initial invite, things would escalate, and if he was lucky, he’d escape without having to kill or seriously injury one of them. His body tensed…

The cop glanced over his shoulder to his partner examining the motionless mugger. “You took care o’ that guy?”

“That’s right.”

He turned back to Splice, a curious grin on his face. “Listen, we’ll handle everything from here, but, um… I think maybe I could use your help, if you’re interested.”

Splice stayed still. “Your chief didn’t seem too thrilled with a partnership of any official capacity.”

He waved the comment away. “Wouldn’t be official. There are some problems around town the higher-ups won’t let us touch, but I know they need to be taken care of. Seems you like to cut through red tape and do things your own way. Our interests might align.”

Was this a trap? It felt like a trap. “What kinds of problems?”

“Not here,” he said, then reached into a pocket on his uniform and produced a notepad and pen. He scribbled something on the top sheet, tore it off, and offered it to Splice. “Come by this address around eleven tonight. I’ll be waiting.”

Splice took it, trying to decide which question to ask next. But Officer Greely didn’t seem in the mood to chat just then. He was already on his way back to his partner’s side to deal with the botched mugging. Ignored once more, Splice melted back into the shadows of the alley. As he went off in search of a sewer grate or manhole, he wondered whether he would need to start carrying a watch to keep appointments like Greely’s invitation. More importantly, he wondered whether Greely’s invitation really was a trap.

Only one way to find out.

To be continued…

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Uncharted Waters (or, The DNA of an Emerging Work-in-Progress)

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So a few weeks ago I posted a short story titled “Splice” that I’d written for a flash fiction prompt. It was an unusual effort for me for a couple of reasons. First, it was a science-fiction piece involving my education background – genetics. I usually use flash fiction prompts to dip my pen into genres I have little experience writing, and when I do write sci-fi, I tend not to go the route of genetic engineering. But the concept that came to me for this prompt felt right, and I went with it immediately. Second, “Splice” was the first flash fiction piece that I outlined. I’m a “pantser” by nature; for those not in the know, it refers to writing by the seat of one’s pants, without setting clear goals or a structure for the plot at the outset of the writing process. This tendency has gotten me into trouble with my long-form projects before, so I’ve begun to outline those in broad strokes, but never my short pieces. With “Splice,” the ideas came so quickly and cohesively that I just had to jot them down, lest they fly right out of my brain.

Did “Splice” turn out better than my other short pieces because of these factors? Maybe, maybe not. All I can say is that I received a lot of positive feedback on it, with multiple readers expressing interest in seeing more of the eponymous main character. And I started thinking. I had cut some of the original story elements from the outline to meet word requirements for the writing prompt, so I already had a little more material to work with. And I was pretty intrigued by the character myself: a convict who agrees to illicit genetic experimentation in exchange for his freedom, and is transformed into a monstrous shapeshifter. Maybe I could write more of Splice’s story. Maybe it could be a serialized tale, or a purely episodic collection of shorts, or some combination of the two. Maybe this will be my first foray into posting my work on Wattpad, or maybe I’ll continue here at the blog. I don’t have a concrete plan for him right now… but I have started the second installment of his story, and am mulling a few ideas for later ones. If the concept sounds interesting to you, you can read the original short here. And stay tuned for more to come!

P.S. Any suggestions or advice on using Wattpad are welcome in the comments section 😀

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